It has been back to the 'real world' for me -- back to work and a fairly busy schedule. It has been nice being back at work, and being with people who share my thoughts and knowledge in regards to my field. I feel like I'm growing as a leader in my job, and I am trying to take positive steps forward. I love my job, but it is a lot of work and exhausting when I try to work and keep up with my workouts. My goal on a normal week is Birkam 5x's a week and kettlebells 3x's a week. This week I did Bikram 4x's and kettlebells 3x's, so not bad. I finished my 30-day Bikram challenge on January 15th and kept going for 34 classes before other routine things got in the way [work].
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| My daredevil hamster Charlie |
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| Roxie keeping an Charlie the hamster |
I have been 'day dreaming' lately [this isn't a new dream by any means] about Bikram Teacher Training. The idea of it has always intrigued me -- the overall experience sounds amazing and life changing; just what I need. I am so settled in my routine, in fact, I'm very boring. I'm okay with that, but I want to step out of my comfort zone. The idea of being an actual Bikram teacher both terrifies me and sounds wonderful -- like my type of job: routine, the same thing, over and over again. Not that being a Bikram teacher assures predictability, but it does have a certain safety to it, while at the same time offering a huge challenge. I am naturally shy, I am not the first person to introduce myself in any situation. I don't know why I am this way, and honestly it has hindered me ever since I was little. My mom spoke for me a lot, being an only child and afraid of adults as a child, I think it just stuck. I'm trying very hard to break out of my shell and grow in my confidence in all avenues in life, even in my job now.
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| Rainy day |
My mom told the Director and his partner {the only individuals who teach at my studio} that I was interested in teacher training. The next day, they both approached me about it -- they said they fully supported me. They know I would do well -- I am concentrated in my practice [plus, they desperately need another teacher]. I have never sat out a pose or left the room, I listen to their instructions, and I haven't had any water during class for almost 4 months. I am a hard worker.
Logistics get in the way for me though... [let the internal monologue begin]: what about my current job? I get Summers off but training is during the year. Would I be able to take however-many weeks off and come back? Would I quit? What about the fact that to go I would have to use all my savings? What about my dog? My house?
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| My favorite spot in the hot room -- left corner! |
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| After Bikram in front of my awesome poster |
So many questions. But this is the time in my life that I should be taking these risks -- I am still young, and not settled with children or a husband. I've been practicing Bikram a little less than 11 months, and it has completely changed me inside and out. My body is not even recognizable to me anymore. Yoga has inspired me to change me habits - I'm vegan, I hardly drink alcohol, and I love going to bed earlier. I take care of myself. I so desperately want to help other's change themselves and inspire themselves. It has been so enjoyable, just the last few weeks, connecting with other's at my studio. That for me is a big step forward.
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| I love berries |
My kettlebells studio is currently doing 90-day challenge, which involves some more intense training, and some health assessment. I went into have my stats checked [BMI, body fat, weight, water concentration]. In March 2011, I weighed about 20 pounds more than I do now. When I had my body fat checked yesterday, I was at 15%. My water concentration (I think that's what it's called?) was 64, and that was directly following Bikram where I had no water during class and only a few sips after. The Dr. said I had the highest number he'd seen all day, and that was after Bikram. He said normal ranges between 38-70, with 70 being where athletes are typically. No wonder I can go without water, my body is full of it!
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| Waiting for the rain |
"Plant an expectation; reap a disappointment."
Now, to hash out the logistics...
Namaste
2 comments:
I know what you mean, Lisa. I struggle to get out of my comfort zone. That was one of the perks of going to class -- I got a chance to meet people and make myself uncomfortable -- on purpose -- in the room. With my practice at a standstill I am slowly returning to life before Bikram. I hate it. The bad food choices, not taking in enough water, no chance to decompress. I've dreamed of going to training as well. I believe I could do it. I KNOW you could. Can't wait to read about how you "hash out the logistics". Peace.
Hey Mark. Thank you for your support. Sorry I haven't replied to you sooner. It seems my blog is the first thing to get put to the side.
The logistics are terrifying! I have a ton of support from the owners of my studio. Right now I'm just trying to consider the possibilities, like my full time job... Scary!
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