Beginning to find myself...

I feel like I'm finally beginning to see myself for who I really am.

It has taken over 25 years, but I'm feeling more comfortable in myself than I have in the past. I know my weaknesses: I'm shy, I hate confrontation, and I feel socially awkward from time to time. I am also beginning to understand some of my strengths. I feel like have begun to find a way of life that is working for me, for now.

I am certainly not completely grown up yet; I still require help from my parents, but I feel more in myself as far as my lifestyle choices. The way I treat my body [and my mind], has changed drastically when looking back 5 years ago {alcohol, no sleep, crummy food, little to no exercise}. Bikram yoga has pushed me further in the direction of self discovery in the last 5 months than I would have ever expected. No true epiphany yet, but I am beginning to realize what works for me, what I love.


I love being healthy. I love eating fruit, vegetables, nuts, with the occasional hard boiled egg midday. I love working out everyday. I love feeling like my body is beginning to reflect the hard work I have done the last 5 months. 


I have a looong way to go, but I'm moving forward, and that's all that matters [even if it's just a millimeter].

Now, onto other ramblings...

I got to go to Bikram this morning. Thank goodness. I was stiff, but I spent the floor series laughing and smiling during savasana. That made for a great class; I have never laughed like that in class before. It took my mind off of the spine strengthening series, so much so that I went higher/deeper into the postures, and it didn't feel nearly as strenuous.


Later on today, I let my impulsiveness get the best of me, and I added one more piercing to my repertoire; my rook piercing (in my ear). That makes 13 piercings. I think I have to be done with piercings now... [piercings aren't permanent, unfortunately tattoos are otherwise I'd have one of those too].

My impulse buy 2 weeks ago - Charlie the hamster

Good Saturday so far. 
Namaste